Slightly Delayed

Wow. Its been a while since I have written and published anything. To be honest with you, that was out of pure neglect of myself. In moments where I made up the excuse that I was too busy, had no energy, or just no motivation to write. I take this as a lesson to myself, that no matter what situation I'm in, there are ways to cope. That is the whole reason I started this so long ago. I look back on some of my blogs and just remember what I was thinking and feeling. The goal of this blogsite was to keep a memory of things I have gone through and make an outlet for others to relate, read about, and maybe even connect with.

I think we can all agree that 2020 was truly not a year of much happiness for some. For others, it was actually a year of major growth and change. This world can so quickly pull us down and into a dark and deep hole if we allow it to. The media and the negativity we've seen the last year was overwhelming. There is truly no explanation for it. I would just challenge others to look at it this way: 2020 was our year to experience delayed gratification. By this, I mean that we were forced to WAIT for our "reward" for doing or accomplishing things. Maybe this last year you let go. Let go of a habit? A person? A thought? We were forced to feel like we weren't getting anywhere in life. We were tricked into thinking, "This is it? This is what we get this time of our lives?" But who's to say that the entire year was SUPPOSE to be teaching us? Or giving us a lesson. Maybe we truly didn't need to go to that concert. Maybe we didn't need to be at the statefair eating food and buying things we don't need. Maybe we didn't need to go out to eat every weekend. Or shopping for things we would only regret later.

Take a look at the things you WERE able to do. We were able to use all this time to remain close to our loved ones. We were challenged to communicate with people we haven't seen in a while and check in on those we miss and care for. We had to be creative and come up with new ways to catch up. Meeting in our cars in parking lots, downloading video apps to include others in meetings and gatherings, and staying as healthy as we can be given the circumstances. We had to keep ourselves busy by creating things or coming up with new ideas and crafts and games. We got so much done in our homes that we have wanted to do forever! Maybe some of us even got addicted to watching videos and making our own content :) Whatever the case, I believe we were meant to wait and not take. Wait for our rewards, wait for our events, and wait for what we WANTED to happen, while we found ourselves really wanting what we've already got. Rather than taking what wasn't ours in the first place...