When life throws you rotten food, bills, and a multitude of tests...

Life can't be easy. Trust me. It isn't ever going to go the way you plan it, or try to anyways. Life has the attitude of a 12 year old girl who wants to go see her first movie with a boy that is too old for her. You know, the, "Oh come on he is a good guy (with no secret intentions) and he "respects" me! Although, life could also be a 3 year old boy screaming for a Hulk action figure at a comic book store, "Mommy! That is the only Hulk that I don't have and If I don't get it I am going to die!" Besides the point, life will throw you the worst curve balls when you can't even stand up straight yet from getting up from the last hit you took to the face. Everything happens at once, and it usually comes without warning. Have you ever opened up your fridge and you knew something truly died in there on the second shelf in the back where no one bothers to clean? Green, spotty, chunky, and smelly yogurt that spilled all over the back of the fridge. My hand landed smack dab in the rotten puddle. This was the BEST part of the day (sorta)! But while I wiped the yogurt off my hand and burned it with hot water, I told myself that today was going to be a better day. Until I remember all the bills due at the end of the month, or the beginning of the month. With one of us working, and only $.67 in our bank account, you can imagine the thoughts going through my mind. But the worst part, is our job situation. One of us nervous of even having their job, and the other, having nothing but issues with jobs. I found a new job that I thought would be the best experience, pay, and opportunity that I would have ever experienced with work. I went through 16 hours of sitting in class training, and over 30 hours shadowing. Having a blast doing all of it! To find out that I will only get offered 8-10 hours week and it is an extra 20 minutes from home. Secondly, coming down with Strep Throat and the Flu at the same time and barely being able to move with a fever of 102.1 for two days. Time got missed and plans got changed, in the end, I spent all day today begging for my old job back. Crying and worrying that there would be no way we could make it without me having a job in our current situation. Life really decided to remind me what tests I can handle. I never really was a good test taker, so when life thinks it can just hand me one without a study guide and a #2 pencil, then what the hell was it thinking giving me all these hoops to jump through? To keep it simple, the end of the day ended up with a nice hot cup of tea, a game of cribbage with my fiance, new medications for my illnesses, and my old job back starting Monday. Oh life, why must you be so difficult? But oh Jess, why must you question life? Life is what makes living a beautiful mess. The "tests" we are given gets us better at dealing with an "F" and eventually achieving an "A". But always remember no matter what grade you receive, even if it is an "F", there are only two real "F" words in life. Failure, and Forward. Don't let the world tell you that all you do is fail. Don't let others make a fool out of you and undermine how powerful you can be when you get given a test. Instead, move Forward. Because to move Forward means to get a tad bit stronger than you were before, but a LOT stronger than the people 5 steps behind you. So next time life sends you a test that you feel you can not achieve, don't worry about getting an "F" as long as you accept that you can move FORWARD.